a perfect stand still

i wish i could just write again - just unclog my writer's block and write. something beautiful and painful. i want to document now and many steps back and all my steps forward. but i got nothing but stopping to smile at how utterly wonderful and bloody and raw and true this is. and not even truly true because there is still so much more we hold under sleeves. they don't get it and i don't always get it either. but i do and it just is. and it could be more but not now. this is fine for now. because we know without saying. and we dance around it but we still dance. hidden in our little world of combinations. hearts are plump and whole. enveloped in beams. in our hands. we're done and undone. if you're wondering

publish my love

"Sailor?"
"Uh huh?"
"Recall the time we was sittin' one night behind the Confederate soldier? Leaning against it. And you took my hand and put it on your heart and you said, 'You feel it beatin' in there Lula get used to it 'cause it belongs to you now.' D'you recall that?"
"I do."

Lula put her head down in Sailor's lap and he stroked her smooth black hair.

"I was hopin' you would. I know that night by heart. Sometimes, honey? I think it's the best night of my life. Really."

(from Barry Gifford's "Wild At Heart")
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"i love u but can only give u words"

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hold me

hold me



photo courtesy of emilie bjork
courtesy of a cup of jo

Let the Social Networking Wars Begin!

Oh yes....this is too rich!

Love It or Hate It?

I don't know, man! It just doesn't feel right!

And Lori Loughlin? And "Lucile Bluth!?"

i'm going to be an aunt!

Ok, so not by blood but more like childhood BFF blood, naw' mean? Recently found out that a childhood friend has a bun in the oven and it has hit me that we are getting older and now have friends who are starting to bake their buns in their ovens...or something.

It was a shock, natch, but it is kind of exciting now. I will be honest, it was so weird touching Danielle's belly. She is 4 months along and I felt around her underbelly...oh lord...i felt it...like REALLY felt the baby! Kind of disgusting and awesome at the same time.

We met up with her yesterday and caught up after years of estrangement. Photo op galore! Baby Dorian James...your Aunt Liza and Aunt Z are kooks. We may be weirded out by you at first but we still love you.

First photos of Dorian. Supposedly that glowing speck in the bottom left photo is his peen...

Yeah, it has a spine. Pretty crazy! Aunt Liza wants that top one in wallet size

Reunited and it feels so good

Danielle says baby D is a kicker. I really wanted him to kick my ear.

We're having a baby!
When I was younger I would put my cat in my shirt and pretend I was 'carrying' a cat. It would squirm and I would think that is how it feels to be preggers...except I could lift up my shirt and make the squirming go away. Danielle has to deal with squirming for 9 months.

Just so that we are clear on the positioning of the child...

Pants Party!

This video is pretty riddick! Could be a jean ad stunt but I love it regardless!